Trading ashes in for beauty!

Has anyone heard that song? Oh I just am in love with it...just hinking about it makes me cry. But it is so true...we'll trade our ashes in for beauty and wear forgiveness like a crown. Coming to kiss the feet of mercy I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross.
Can you even grasp that? Most times I can't...it just feels so freeing just to sing/say the words I cannot even come to grips with how that might really feel. I try...try and try again to lay my burdens at His feet, and then I end up just picking them back up again b/c I just can't let go. I don't do this on purpose...but it's in me you see, to just get things done....my way! That means efficiently and fast and in a manner that pleases all around me (so I think). But then come to think of it, by doing that, I am displeasing the one I should really be worried about.
I once again have taken on too much and am overcommitted and underpaid (heheh I was just kidding about the underpaid thing...I'm not paid at all, it just sounded funny). This is soemthing I promised myself I would work on over this past year and am failing again! But you know I am willing to admit my mistakes and hopefully move on again.
So all in all, in this quest to become the "perfect" everything I have failed...I am forgiven, and I am trying to make it better for tomorrow! I know that the only way to do so is in Him...thank God that ones not up to me! Lord knows I would fail.